Friday, September 11

Let Us Never Forget



I'm feeling so many emotions today.  I was looking back, trying to find some pictures that we took while we were in NYC on that horrific day.  In some ways, it feels like it was just yesterday when I look at the photos.  The fear and anxiety has subsided, but the sadness for the lost lives is still very near.  What also remains is gratitude for all those who selflessly helped in that time of need and for all those who continue to serve our great country and keep us free.   It is a debt that we can never repay.  I would just like to add my sincere thanks to those that are remembering this day and those who have given their lives or loved ones on behalf of our country.  May we never forget.

We happened to be in NYC on September 11, 2001.  Scott was working that beautiful, clear, fall morning near Times Square.  I was staying with our friends, Sam and Sara, in Astoria, Queens and I about to venture out to the WTC to buy some discount show tickets when our friend, Sam called me to tell me to stay put and turn on the news.  I turned on the news just in time to see the second plane hit the second tower.  After that, shock turned into horror and that day began that would turn out to be among the longest and darkest for so many.

I could not reach Scott because all the phone lines were jammed.  I was pretty sure he was okay, because he was far from the WTC, but I really wanted to hear his voice.  Luckily, we had both thought to call my mom and she was able to relay messages to us from each other.  Scott was fine and he was going to meet up with Sam and Sara and walk home.  I stayed put, anxious and scared.  I watched the horrible footage and fielded phone calls from worried friends and family.  I could hear the jets outside and could already see the smoke in the sky.

Here are some pictures Scott took on his walk home on the 59th Street Bridge.
Thankfully, after a several hours, Scott, Sam, Sara, and Sam's boss arrived home safely.  We talked, cried, answered phone calls and ordered pizza.  It was a day that went on and on.  That night we walked around Astoria in disbelief.  It was such a beautiful day.  The air temperature was perfect, but one glance toward the WTC told us that it was no ordinary day.  It was so quiet other than the occasional jet zooming overhead.  We ate dinner in a local diner.  The news coverage was blaring in the corner. 

We were so worried about our new sister-in-law, Rebecca who was a flight attendant for American Airlines based out of Boston.  I knew she was on a trip, but I couldn't remember which flight.  We were so happy when we heard that she was stranded in Texas and safe.  Sadly, she knew a number of the flight attendants on the Boston flight.

That night we had reservations at a hotel in Times Square, but we didn't want to go into the city.  The city was closed and we wanted to be with friends. There were many rumors of bomb threats.  There was just a feeling of panic.

The next morning, Scott went into work and the rest of us decided we all had to get out of the house.  We walked to a local track and walked a bit.  On the way, we stopped at a hospital and put our name on a blood donation list.  There seemed like so little we could do...What struck me most were the posters and pictures of missing people all over the neighborhood.  I will never forget that.

Scott only worked half day and then came and got me and we went into the city.  We were probably a little crazy for continuing with our plans, but I'm glad we did.  That night, we took a subway as far south as we could and walked the rest of the way to a restaurant in Greenwich Village.  We had reservations for the night before.  (We were going to celebreate our anniversary on the 11th instead of the 10th because Scott had gotten tickets to the Yankee's game on the 10th.  We never actually saw the game because it was rained out.  We were the couple huddled together in the pouring rain in ponchos for two hours with nobody else around except for the half naked drunk guy.  I tell Scott that's what he gets for taking me to a baseball game on our anniversary combined with the curse of the Yankees.)

The neighborhood south of 14th Street was closed to traffic so it was eerily quiet.  The streets were empty of the typical traffic and even parked cars were few.  People were quietly walking, riding bikes, skateboarding, roller blading and planning midnight vigils.  The missing persons posters were sobering.  I think we all felt like we wanted to be out and with each other.  The people we encountered were extremely friendly.  We all looked each other in the eye and asked each other how we were doing.  I felt true concern, unity and compassion from everyone.

The next day, we got as close to the WTC as we could.  It still seemed so unreal.  How could the towers be gone?  How many people had lost their lives?  The estimations were staggering.  There were false reports of survivors.  How could this have happened here in our country?  More haunting details were coming out.  We walked around in awe and disbelief.


The next week we had planed to go to Boston and stay with my brother, Steven.  We spent the week visiting the many historical sites.  What a meaningful and poignant time to learn about and appreciate our country's many patriots.  We had such an intense appreciation for our country and its founders throughout this week.  The city was plastered with American flags and signs that read, "God Bless America" and "United We Stand."


I hope we always remember the feelings we felt that day.  Let's remember the gratitude we had for our friends, families, lives, and the heros who gave so much.  Let's always remember the compassion and unity we felt.

Thursday, September 10

Happy 10th Anniversary, Babe!

To celebrate 10 fantastic years of marriage, I would like to tell you 10 reasons I love you so much!
  1. I love that when a construction company called looking for work this week, I was able to tell him that my husband can do all the things we need around the house.  When he asked if there was anything outside his expertise, I said, "No, he can do everything!"
  2. I love that you help cook so much that our 5 year old was confused when he found out that his Aunt Jen was cooking on Saturday and why not Uncle Daniel because, "boys make the food!"
  3. I love that it is very important and a priority to you that I stay home with the kiddos.
  4. I love that you are a softy and good at expressing your feelings because I am not.
  5. I love that you like to make special occasions out of events and do things right.
  6. I love that you are a good sport when I try new recipes and make weird food and most of the time you really like it.
  7. I love that you are a leader in family prayer, family home evening and scripture study.
  8. I love that you work so hard for our family, driving to LA everyday to provide for our family when I know you would rather be home with us.
  9. I love that you are happiest when you are with me and our boys.
  10. I love that you have put up with me for 10 years and still tell me you love me everyday and meant it!
I love you too!  Here's to 50 more wonderful years and looking forward to all that the future has in store for us together!

Tuesday, September 8

Joshie's First Day of Preschool--His Turn!



After trailing behind Big Bro for two years longingly eyeing all the preschool toys, it was FINALLY Joshie's turn.  When I presented him with a new Star Wars t-shirt for the day, he jumped up and down and said, "IT'S MY TURN!"  So decked out in a new t-shirt, hand me down easy up shorts, Ben's old tennis shoes, and a new Ice Age 3 lunch box earned by successful potty training, he took preschool by storm.

How great is preschool when you've seen the inside of the classroom for two years, seen the same teachers, watched Big Bro have fun, and have 5 church friends in the same class including, good friend, Jack?  Piece of cake!

Nothing but happy and excited!
After putting on the name tag and snapping a few pictures, I pointed to the toys and before I could kiss him, he was off.  I had to kiss the top of his head and hug his back.  I made a big deal of sending Ben in to wish his little brother good luck and give him a hug and the little guy didn't even look up!  We've always said, "Joshie, Party of one!"  
He was all smiles when we picked him up.  I missed my sweet guy, but, oh, was it nice to take the baby to the doctor and only worry about the baby.  Love, love preschool!
What do they say?  A child's work is to play.  I think Joshie put a long day in at the office!  Love you, buddy!

Thursday, September 3

Ben's First Day of Kindergarten (AKA Green Pear vs. Yellow Pear)

All dressed for success in his Marvel Comics t-shirt and X-wing fighter backpack, Ben embarked on his first day of the public school system...Kindergarten!  He had met his teacher the week before during his assesment and liked her right away.  He reported to me, "Mom, she was NICE!"  I think it also helped that she is young and pretty.  He got even more excited about starting school when he found out that SHE would be his teacher!

Scott went in late that morning so we could all escort Ben to school and I'm glad he did because the school was a mad house.  Ben almost didn't make it past the parking lot because I almost got him ran over by a crazy car.  After a few pictures, Ben marched right in.  Because of the crowds, I stood in the back of the classroom and snapped a few pictures between all the parents' heads.  I was so proud of him and he seemed so grown up.  I couldn't help getting emotional but was happy to see that he was happy to be there.  I blew him a kiss from the back of the crowd and said goodbye.
This is my friend Angie, who was in MY Kindergarten class, and her little girl who happens to be in the same class as Ben.  The circle of life...
An awesome backpack is something to smile about!
Getting name tags...of course, my kid is in the back row.

I came a little early to pick up Ben and I was talking to my friend Angie when Ben wandered up and stood by me.  I gave him a hug and kiss and asked him how his day was and he look kind of sad and just said, "fine..."  After five minutes or so, I noticed that Ben was the only kid outside of the classroom.  I asked him if his teacher told him he could go or if he just got up and walked out.  He said he just walked out.  I told him to go back inside and wait until she said he could go. I guess he was just done.   I chalked him leaving early and acting sad to the fact that it was so darn hot that day.

When Ben was finally officially dismissed, his teacher came to me to tell me that Ben had homework because there was something that he wouldn't color in class.  She said he wanted to color something green, not yellow. I said, "okay, no problem."  I asked her if he was okay and why he walked out early and if she was aware of that.  She just said she was aware and that yes, it was really hot in the classroom and it was kind of crazy with all the parents around.

After talking to his teacher, I found Ben sitting on a bench looking sad.  I asked him what was wrong and he just burst into tears saying that he wanted to color his pear green but the teacher said it had to be yellow.  Well, I couldn't help it, it was such a sad and heartfelt display of emotion from my innocent Kindergartener that I couldn't stop my tears from welling up.  My friend came by and asked what was wrong and SHE got tears in her eyes.  

My mother hen feathers were ruffled (Did it really matter on the first day of school what color the pear was?!).  First, I told Ben that I liked green pears better too.  (We eat the green pears at our house because by the time the are yellow they are gross and mushy!)  Then, I told him that when he was at home, he could color his art any way that he wanted, but in school, he had to learn to follow the directions of his teacher.  I explained to Ben that his teacher was trying to teach him the word, "yellow" and that each of the boxes that made up the picture of the pear had the word "yellow" in them.  THAT's why he was to color the boxes yellow.  Once I explained that to him he seemed fine, but I was still sad to see my boy crying on his first day of school and not excited to go back again.

Later, in the car, Ben told me that he was coloring his pear green and then all the kids told on him.  It sounds like he was just embarrassed for doing something "wrong" and refused to do it after that.  Following directions turned out to be a harsh but important lesson to learn on the first day of Kindergarten.  

We invited a friend over for lunch, smoothies and some Star Wars legos and the world was right again!